Rissa Indrasty

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Jakarta , Jakarta Selatan, Indonesia
seafairy | journalist | artist | musician | artworker | traveller

PINGSAN! Hari Yang Mengingatkanku Pada Beberapa Tahun Silam

Hari ini aku bertugas liputan di Polda Metro Jaya Jakarta Selatan, Rabu (16/9/2020).


Saat awal, semua terasa biasa-biasa saja, bertemu teman yang asik-asik, berbincang seperti biasa.

Hingga pekerjaan dimulai, aku mengambil rekaman video seperti biasa, hingga bermenit-menit berlalu, aku merasa sekujur tubuhku terasa aneh.

Aku merasa mulai tak bisa menopang tubuhku, tapi aku terus berusaha. Pandanganku sudah terasa mengabur sekali-sekali, tapi aku terus berusaha dan berteriak dalam hati, aku bisa aku bisa, perasaan ini cuma halusinasi.

Hingga beberapa saat kemudian, aku merasakan tak mampu lagi.

Kau tahu? Faktanya, Tubuhmu tak akan pernah sekalipun berbohong padamu. Aku merasa aku sudah tidak kuat, ini saatnya aku berhenti. 

Aku pun menghentikan pekerjaanku, aku menekan tombol berlambang persegi yang berarti menghentikan video, meski pekerjaanku belum selesai. Aku tahu, aku harus cepat mengambil keputusan untuk berhenti, karena aku yang bertanggungjawab atas tubuhku sendiri.

Lalu kemudian aku duduk di tempat terdekat dan langsung minum. Saat tengah minum, aku langsung menyusul teman-teman yang tengah berjalan menuju cafe terdekat, aku berjalan agak cepat karena aku takut pingsan saat tengah berjalan. Diam diam pikiran dan tubuhku menggila saat tengah berjalan itu, rasanya sakit dan ingin jatuh saat itu juga.

 Tapi aku mengabaikan dan terus berjalan cepat hingga aku mengatakan duduk disana saja! Karena itu yang paling terdekat di teras restoran, aku tak sanggup ingin duduk. Tanpa mereka setujui aku langsung duduk dan diikuti yg lain, aku langsung menyandarkan kepala ku di atas tanganku, dimana tanganku bersandar pada meja, tak lupa aku memejamkan mataku. Aku mengatakan bahwa aku sangat pusing.

Beberapa detik, temanku yang lain ingin mencari meja lain, tapi dia memintaku menunggu di meja, sembari dia mencari tempat, ntah dia mengerti keadaanku.

Tak lama, dia mengajakku untuk ke tempat lain di dalam restoran, itu lebih better karena tak ada asap rokok yang kutakutkan membuatku terasa semakin parah. Akupun kembali menyandarkan kepalaku di meja dan memejamkan mata, tapi ac di restoran tersebut terasa menusuk nusuk tubuhku dan tiba2 perutku terasa sakit, keringat mengocor deras di wajah hingga badan-badanku.

Hingga temanku berkata,

"Ih rissa, lu keringatan. Kok lu tiba-tiba sih kaya gini?"

Aku juga sambil tibatiba bertanya-tanya, kenapa tubuhku tiba-tiba drop kayak begini.

Ingatanku pun berkelana pada beberapa tahun lalu, aku tengah berada di sebuah desa, tengah membuat film dokumenter. Waktu itu aku dan temanku pergi ke persawahan mengambil video suasana sawah dipedesaan, ditengah terik matahari yang menyengat. Saat itu aku berkata pada temanku,

"Eh tau nggak? Aku kalo kena panas matahari bisa sakit loh."

Lalu temanku tertawa tak percaya..

"Hahahaha, mana ada orang sakit cuma karena kena panas matahari."

Lagipula saat itu kondiisi ku sangat sehat dan masih bercanda-canda.

Hingga pulang ke rumah sewaan, tiba tubuhku drop, pandanganku sekali kali kabur, tubuhku terasa sangat berat seperti ditimpa, hingga aku terbaring tak berdaya, dan aku pun benar benar sakit telak.

Suhu tubuhku meningkat drastis seperti di siram air panas kalo kata temanku, aku juga sulit bangun.

Parahnya, aku demam hingga berhari-hari. Entah mengapa mungkin karena ini di desa, gosip aku sakit tersebar ke sepenjuru desa,

Hingga bu RT datang memeriksa kesehatanku.

Apalagi kami adalah anak kota yang datang ke desa, setahuku, kalo di film-film, peristiwa kayak anak kota ke desa selalu jadi pusat perhatian, ya kayak aku gini, anak kota sakit jadi heboh 1 desa, dan beneran ini kejadian di dunia nyata. Tahu sendiri kan, orang membuat film kerap kali tak jauh dari kejadian-kejadian nyata.

Saat itu, aku merasa kaki ku disentuh dan kudengar itu suara ibu RT. BTW, aku orang yang akan terbangun ketika terasa tersentuh bahkan hanya dengan 1 jari saja (itulah penyebab aku tidak bisa tidur sama orang lain di satu kasur). Tapi saat aku disentuh bu RT, aku tak langsung membuka mataku karena mataku seperti ditempeli lem, tapi saat itu aku terasa setengah sadar dari tidur, makanya aku sedikit2 dengwr suara ibu RT. Kalau tidak salah dia memberiku obat, aku lupa.

Ntah berapa lama aku tak sadarkan diri, hingga hari hari kemudian aku mulai pulih. Barulah aku mendengar ceritaku dari teman-temanku. Menurut penuturan teman yang tidur bersamaku, aku setiap malam menangis memanggil ibuku di dalam tidurku, Sejauh ingatanku hingga saat ini, aku bermimpi melihat akar-akar besar yang bergerak.

Nah, stelah itu, fakta lainnya, ketika aku pergi keluar dan bertemu orang-orang. Aku dikenal sebagai si Rissa yang sakit karena kena panas matahari itu.

Dan temanku yang saat itu menertawakanku karena tak percaya aku bisa sakit karena kena panas, semakin menertawakanku.

"Hahahaha, gila ya. Beneeran loh. Ternyata ada ya orang yang sakit cuma karena kena panas matahari."

-flashback off-

Kembali ke masa ini, aku tiba-tiba berpikir, apa penyakit kena panas langsung sakitku kambuh lagi ya karena kelamaan WFH? Hemmmm. Seperti yng diketahui, penyakit kena paanasku sudah hampir punah semenjak aku bekerja sebagai wartawan dan sering di bawah matahari.

Tapi saat itu, aku minum es jeruk hangat dan langsung makan, tiba tiba saja aku merasa sangat sangat lebih baikkk , aku merasa pulih, meski masih ada seuprit sisa sisa puyengnya. Hingga temen ku mengatakan.

"Ih rissa lu udah seger lagi,"

Tapi saat itu aku menduga karena aku tidak sarapan. Tp biasanya aku tidak pernah sarapan dan baik2 saja. Lantass?? Apaaa kejadian barusan itu???

Pulang pun tiba, hingga sampai di kamar aku mengingat aku belum datang bulan. Dan ketika mengecek, oooo god, ternyata ini hari pertamaku HAID, pantas saja aku lemass dan tak mampuuuu sekaliiiiii. Finally i got teh answer!

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GOT A PEACEFULL LYFE IN PANDEMI CORONA VIRUS COVID-19



 Wednesday, 3/6/2020

All of us never axpect this situation ya,

It was like the movie that always we watch right? When the virus attack the world,

The different think that theres no one to be zombie.

But Corona Virus will attack ur lungs and ur immune, very danger for u who have history serious diseas. Ur lungs will have spotting white, makes u really difficult to breath, cough, its really torture.

The corona virus spread through stuff that u touch, corona virus stick to ur hand, and u touch area of ur face without wash ur hand before, and the hell ya, you got it. Of course u can get the corona virus if u interaction with someone who has the coronavirus.

The virus is smart tho, they are developing so fast, recently they can life in the air a few minute.
so to stop spread the corona virus, the government ask everyone to do all activity in home, we called 
Work From Home (WFH).

Maybe we have been being in home since 3 month,

Some people say ‘im bored just in home!’ . oh ya, all of mall or vacation place is close during the corona virus. U have to take away ur food tho, cant eat in the restaurant.

But…

 I don’t know, I love this situation, not about the corona virus, im sorry for the victim,
But honestly I love being home.

Before the corona virus, I think I ruined my life, I hated my life, I didn’t wanna do anythink, Im bored to work, Im tired of life. I didn’t have a big problem, Im just hate everything so much.

I think every activity that Ive done to be bad result, but actually I did my duty or my activity very well, have you ever felt like that ???

I have think that I have to resign, but I don’t know what kind of job that I wanna do next. Because to be journalist is end of my dream job that I wanna do.

So im stuck here, im bored to do my job but I cant resign because I don’t know wat kind of job that i wanna do next.

Ive ever thought to be ‘orang kantoran’ seems interesting.

And then corona virus come,

All of we do the different think in our job before the corona virus, right ?

I always in field, everywhere  in out there, never have sit in the room with a cup of coffe, never met the same person everyday, never to the same place everyday, always attacked by the sun and the fucking rain, never do the different think, met the the different situation, have to ready to situation that never axpect, cant eat everytime when I was hungry because I have to stay, cant lose the moment.

After the coronavirus,

I wake up in the morning, do my job, just sitt in the bad, if tired I can lay, much time to surf in social media instagram, watch vlog of artist, calling artist and interview by phone, can finish my job faster than before although Im stressed because i have to do the different 'pola' of work, means suddenly change, can learn cooking, can eat everytime, im to be more wateful.

I really enjoy the different activity that ive  done, I think god give my dream to be ‘orang kantoran’ HHAHA, thank god. But this orang kantoran is the best orang kantoran, I don’t have to adaptation to the same person that I have to met everyday, so theres no problem will appear. Because in the office often happened that conflick, jeolus, envy each other, bad character, uh, I hate that. I really hate bad person that usually can be find in the office.

Just one time I went to field, when  Glenn Fredly gone, the most popular singer in Indonesia dead, I went to Mitra hospital at 8 pm till 12 pm, and when I was back to home, I have to take a bath then continued my duty till 2 am. Can sleep at 3 am. Woke up early morning at 6 am and continued my work till I cant have energy again then sleep till afternoon. Uh thic hectic situation often Ive done in normal life a.k.a without corona by the the way.

I know this is tired, but Ilove met all of friends that night, ahhh, long time no see.

*Then Ramadhan come,

I feel more peacefull, my heart and my soul more calmdown, although sometimes to be fire, but its not long.

This Ramadhan is one of the best Ramadhan that ive ever felt,

Although I never do ‘buka puasa bersama’ but this peacefull never irreplaceable lah pokoknya ma, really really worth it.

I through Idul fitri in Jakarta, still thank to god although without the family.

I eat hampers that I got from the kindness people, ah a long holiday.

WAT A WONDERFULL LYFE !

Sorry but not sorry,
I feel tired to continue my feel. So that’s all ya. Ah long time no see my blog, I never write in my blog again, because everyday I write duty my work, then I never use my holiday to write too.
Oke thankyou for all of you guys to visit my blog.


Love

Rissa I W


How Careless Am I or How stupid Im ? ERROR ME


Wednesday, 3/6/2020


Maybe im very tired,

or I think to much, but actually I don’t have a huge problem to think.

Or I jut tired cause lately I always watched serial till I slept late.

And every hinge and bone in hurts cause I did hard activity for health

Oke, let me tell you about mu careless..
I ve ever been wrong about my holiday, I should work at that day but I guess I was free from job. And at 4 pm my boss sent me message, she said that ‘why you haven’t sent the news yet ?’

Me : ‘yea, im off today (with confidently)

Boss : hemm, I was wrong or how…

Then, I check my schedule, and…
WAT THE HELLL ! im not offffffffff.

Me : OMG !!!!! Im not off. I was wrong. Aaak ! what I have to do know?

Boss : calm down, calm down, slowly. U can launch an re write the news from kompas or tribun.

Me : Nope, to late to do that.

I shared and asked other journalist from another media to make the solution of my problem,  and thank god! I got the solution, I owe to her. I work at the 4 pm till 10 pm. Huft. I thank god I can finished my job.

Then… in the other day, yesterday actually. I was careless again.

I guess I have to work, and then when I was almost done, I realized I was off. I work in the day I got day off. Ah, yeah, I thought I was really stupid gurl. So I asked to my boss to changed my day off. Thank god again they approved my request.

And today, I was carelessed again, I forgot to make report of my job yesterday.  HUFT. So I ve done that report this morning.

And the last careless ive done that I forgot absence full 1 moth in May, wkwkwkw. STUPID ah, im tired ah talk bout how stupid im

I don’t know why am I always do the mistake lately, even though the universe very kind to me recently. I always feel peacefull than before, but I seems like betray the universe.

Hem, I think im not really thankfull to god and sink down in hectic world, make me forgot god.

Love

Rissa I W